Beginning
It is said the experience is the best teacher. Many have quoted it. I have many times wondered “What in the world is this experience supposed to teach me!”
Well I seem to be a diffucult student to teach because I have had some experiences come my way that had to be taken care of immediatly and where life changing. Usually I would head to a quiet private place and pray for this was the spiritual tradition I was raised to. I admit to some extrodinary and some small answers. Yet as I sat in church one sunday in a congreational meeting.I wondered what it was we were really supposed to be doing with the lessons we were hearing from theperson at the pulpit and getting from our experiences. My conclusion was to consider them and applying them to life. But how, what way do you consider these things. Well meditation seemed to be a good answer for this.
Meditation was not a word used in the church I attended and seemed to be generally thought of as something foreign. But scripture study, prayer and contemplation was. As life would have it I eventually came across some teachings on meditation that expanded what I had learned in my former church and took my spiritual intersts into meditation practice. I again am not an easy student but was much more at home in coping with my own emotions and experiences as my understanding of meditation grew.
This is important because in 2018 I had significat loss in my life. I lost my hearing and never got it back.
It is five years after. And looking back as I write this I know I could have just crawled in bed and said, “this is the end” and sometimes I wish I had. What saved me was that I could meditate.
There are many different meditations and meditation practices. What they all have in common is they talk about the voice, the inner critic whom you hear.
I had thought I had made peace with my innter critic but when I lost my hearing all I could hear was my own thoughts. I was amazed at how critical and hurtful what I was hearing was.
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